After Soul Survivor

I've been meaning to blog after Soul Survivor for ages but I never got round to doing it.. But I'm mega-bored right now so here it is =P

Let's start with SOUL SURVIVOR! Wow.. so amazing! Words can't even describe how amazing those 5 days were. Before I left to go to SS I was like.. Ok when I'm there I'm gonna make the most out of it and really really open up to God. And thank God that I really did open up to Him and seriously just let Him in and told Him everything that was bothering me. During the first main meeting that we had I felt really alive and seeing everyone around me jump around to celebrate God's love just hyped me up even more :)
Now for all of you who are really desperately wanting to feel the Holy Spirit. This is really weird and not make sense, but it happens when you're trying the least. If you're having a huge argument with God in your head because you want to feel Him, it's even harder. God has a time for everything so just let Him plan out everything for you. It might not be your time to feel those things. And like Mike Pivalachi kept saying at Soul Survivor, just because you don't feel the Holy Spirit DOESN'T mean that God doesn't love you!! I was really struggling with this before we went up cos I used to see people around me being slain and I used to literally beg God for me to feel what they were feeling. And after 9 months it happened.. But my point is that it's not just gonna happen with the flick of a finger. So just let God take control of you when He feels is the right time.

Our tent was bloody hilarious! I couldn't have asked for better tent-buddies =P Thanks guys and thanks to Xixa for being an amazing tent leader! Our tent was really messy and it was hilarious when we were all trying to find where all our stuff was xD Haha Chrissy remember when we walked it all the way to the showers then realised we forgot our towels in the tent?! And we had to walk all the way back! Lool that was our first morning xP And splashing in the mud with our wellies :) On our first night me, Paula and Chrissy got MEGA lost! And we were panicking cos we were late! And watching you guys mud-slide! (videos on my facebook :P) Maa guys I really miss everything :( It was such an amazing experience and I became really close with a few people and met some amazing new people =) So thanks everyone :] I LOVE YOUU ALL =D

Life after Soul Survivor has been REALLY busy! I've been waiting for my Summer to get better and now it's happened. So it just goes to show that we really just have to trust God. Cos I know that without His help things would be just like they were. After weeks of being angry at God because of the way things were regarding friends and such, I finally realised what He wanted to tell me through the situation. And thanks to Him I got over my shyness, something that I am really happy that happened.

I regret a few things that happened last week.. Just wanted to say thanks to those who were near me and those who haven't judged me.. At Soul Survivor during one of the meetings Mike Pivalachi said that God forgives us no matter what we do. I know that's true but I'm still having a hard time accepting it. Like on Monday I was saying who am I to be here praising God knowing all the bad things I've done in my past? I felt as though I didn't deserve to be there. While all this was going through my mind, Karla came near me and basically told me everything that I was thinking and said some really encouraging things, so thanks Kai =) And Amy! Thanks so much for everything! Basically thanks to everyone who has been there for me :]

Reef Rhythms is up tomorrow! With our very own Y4J Band :O I can't wait =D I'm praying for you guys! I'm sure you'll be amazing! For those of you giving your testimony, DON'T BE NERVOUS! God will be near you the whole time :D Prayers to you too =)

I think this blog is long enough and I can't think of anything else to blog about xD

God Bless :]
xxxxx